If people remember SAS, yep! the dreaded signals and systems, we used to represent 2 signals of types, x(t-T) and x(t+T). this post of mine is to be considered mylife(t+1year)! i would give a thumbs up to those electronics guys and girls who could guess it now only what i would be talking about!
Well... the reason why i chose such a cryptic start is because as i told i am crazy about physics and maths the blend of which is SAS!okay. let's start with the business of me writing (like one crazy girl whom people might think is there to change the world!).. my life past 1 year has been, to sum up a pot of experiments! i can say i've refound myself! answers to few of my unanswered questions have started unfolding! a great start i would say! a year in bangalore though a familiar place has made me sturdy! life has become more interesting with confrontations everyday! confrontation between the expectations and the outcome, the likes and dislikes, helplessness and opportunity, assertion v/s timidity and finally being myself as i want to be v/s as others want me to be! i would say a dilemma between complacency and the urge to do something!
A transformation from student life to industrial/corporate has been, i can say has made me see the real world! it has made me realise, wake up! this is where u got to live the rest of ur life! one thing is for sure! Student life is the golden life! very true! for a guy, it is a life not bothered by tax, savings, pay package! and for a girl, it is a life of aspirations! the days where she believes she can do something and show the world out there that we are no less! . i would dare not say all when i mention this, coz i have seen guys who lack a vision of their life and girls, who have hardly got any opportunity to assert themselves and who lose their identity before they can find one!those men folks reading this might find i am a bit partial towards girls.. :)
I have had 'encounters' with some of the most 'interesting species' on earth i would say! (yep! sarcasm at its best. no marks for guessing! ) people who are unusually and irritatingly curious of other's lives! but yep! as they say, it is human mind. it behaves how we train it. but one thing for sure. the initial irritation has given way to me trying to become a good HR manager! ;) before joining the job, i had the opinion that technical job is the toughest one and why they have these MBAs and all! but now i believe, human mind is far more unpredictable and difficult to manage than an IC! that's the good part! isnt it? may be that's why they say look at the glass as always half full (although most of the times i see it half empty! see again- the human mind! ) .
One thing i am amazed at it is the human ability to adapt! may be it is in our blood.. ask anyone how they felt the day they left their college! may be people would've cried(even boys) who find difficult to leave the nest of strong bonds which would've built over time! (i may say, my string of bonds are very weak outside the family except for very few for as i have told many times earlier, people find me difficult to handle! ;p ) but a year later, i woud like to ask my fellow college mates, how they feel now! time has an amazing effect on us i feel.. or may be we get used to things after a transition period.
hmm.. the year ahead.. is as blank a white paper, on which the 'pens of thoughts, ideas, aspirations, expectations + inhibitions, fears' are competing to write! 12th month from now i would be able to say who won the competition and the places! :)
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Sunday, December 19, 2010
after a long break!
Hi all!!!
It's been 7 months since i became visible thru my blog.. although there were many things to tell, share, somehow i couldnt. there is one question boggling me since some time. what happens when we try change something which has been there for quite a long time? let us start from my(assuming there are people out there to lend both their eyes and 'brain' to whatever i write!! :p) own habits.. for me first there will be an apprehension about what if something goes wrong which i assume has been right till now.. i would be kind of complacent with what is there or what is given. but the turmoil starts the moment i start thinking of something different... okay..after initial inhibition, hesitation everything, there comes a day i start with something new, different. there comes the real test! coz then not only you but others will also know that u are upon (and may be in the longer run that i am 'upto' )something! something what? they might not know but yes they know something is there! 'fishy' may be! hmm... the journey there on, i would say a bag of mixed feelings. it is a continuous test of identity, individuality and of course patience.it brings one to confront one's own beliefs. at times i would have to rethink on what i believe in. who is more important to me, the one who is in me(give it any name) or those who are outside with whom i have to be with everyday? dont many of us feel that we live in two different worlds?? one which is exclusively ours where u know what u want, what u like, what u want to do and be and at the same what or who u 'dont' want to be!. then there is another one where u dont live for yourselves but for others, no doubt for our own so called material benefits. with my observations (mention, not a survey though! ) it is easy to find people who live in the latter world. but one can hardly find those who live in the former coz the world outside may just not allow that! but i feel there are many who are stuck in the middle path sometimes confused which way to go! confused coz we definitely dont live in a dream world! it is so brutally practical that people tend to forget the means and where only the end matters...... and that is where these 'path finders' get lost. it may be impractical to have ideals and principles. it may be foolish also! but i feel it is a binding and driving factor to our otherwise monotonous lives. i would not recommend one to go after a euphoric goal. like they say choti si aasha, ek choti si thought to otherwise usually accepted or taken for granted norms can do wonders i belive! but i should add that the test of this belief of mine is still going on.. the day i give up or i am proven false, i would say just scrap this post of mine!
It's been 7 months since i became visible thru my blog.. although there were many things to tell, share, somehow i couldnt. there is one question boggling me since some time. what happens when we try change something which has been there for quite a long time? let us start from my(assuming there are people out there to lend both their eyes and 'brain' to whatever i write!! :p) own habits.. for me first there will be an apprehension about what if something goes wrong which i assume has been right till now.. i would be kind of complacent with what is there or what is given. but the turmoil starts the moment i start thinking of something different... okay..after initial inhibition, hesitation everything, there comes a day i start with something new, different. there comes the real test! coz then not only you but others will also know that u are upon (and may be in the longer run that i am 'upto' )something! something what? they might not know but yes they know something is there! 'fishy' may be! hmm... the journey there on, i would say a bag of mixed feelings. it is a continuous test of identity, individuality and of course patience.it brings one to confront one's own beliefs. at times i would have to rethink on what i believe in. who is more important to me, the one who is in me(give it any name) or those who are outside with whom i have to be with everyday? dont many of us feel that we live in two different worlds?? one which is exclusively ours where u know what u want, what u like, what u want to do and be and at the same what or who u 'dont' want to be!. then there is another one where u dont live for yourselves but for others, no doubt for our own so called material benefits. with my observations (mention, not a survey though! ) it is easy to find people who live in the latter world. but one can hardly find those who live in the former coz the world outside may just not allow that! but i feel there are many who are stuck in the middle path sometimes confused which way to go! confused coz we definitely dont live in a dream world! it is so brutally practical that people tend to forget the means and where only the end matters...... and that is where these 'path finders' get lost. it may be impractical to have ideals and principles. it may be foolish also! but i feel it is a binding and driving factor to our otherwise monotonous lives. i would not recommend one to go after a euphoric goal. like they say choti si aasha, ek choti si thought to otherwise usually accepted or taken for granted norms can do wonders i belive! but i should add that the test of this belief of mine is still going on.. the day i give up or i am proven false, i would say just scrap this post of mine!
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